Not my own little one! But yet to much my own!

Ok.. so here I go. I've been thinking about this for a long time, ages actually, but never got around to putting pen to paper.. correction... finger to keyboard. I've admired the numerous blog posts I get to stumble onto every now and then, and remember the longing I feel in my guts to finally begin to write my own. Not that I am looking forward to a best seller or something - it would help if that happens, of course - but just that I've been actually thinking about the end in another same number of years I've already lived, and felt remorse at leaving legacyless, without anybody knowing me, my life, some of my hidden, dark, bright, all kinds of truths! But all that soon... I hope now that I have begun, I wont rest.

For now let me recount something which happened today.. something which brought a lump as big as a mountain up my throat. Aditya, my neighbor's kid, was playing with me and Nishtha (Nishtha, you'll get to know, is my life, the reason for my living, my daughter, the light of my life, and more, and more...). Now, Aditya is a darling himself, so grown for his age at 3! And he adores me and Nishtha! Nishtha, I can understand - there's not one person on Earth who can't fall in love with that unadulterated personification of love, but me... well I do take some getting used to to be loved and adored! With Adi, I could actually sense our mutual adoration just by his complete surrender to me when I am around.

Anyways, so he was having a great time, playing with me and Nishtha, and all of a sudden, he lost his balance and fell - and most cruelly, hit the bridge of his nose against the corner of our small living room table! Immediately, blood oozed out, his nose started swelling... I ran and picked him up, applied some ice first and then some antiseptic! And he completely surrendered to me! With all his pain and between his cries of woe, he seemed to repose all his trust in me completely...

I took him, along with his grandmother and their maid, to the nearby doctor. His mother also arrived there immediately. The doctor applied iodine and gauze tape to stem the blood and gave him medicines. All the while, he clung to me!! Even when we returned, he wouldn't move away from me, sitting next to me in the car. When we finally reached home, he wouldnt come out of the car with anyone other than me... not even his mother!

Man... I was freaked with this show of love and utter dependence! I couldn't push the lump down from my throat for a long time! Finally, he did go back home with his mother... but left me with a sense of bewilderment. I am used to receive such unadulterated love and attention only from my life's most prized possession, my daughter, but Aditya completely made my day, and maybe my life all over again. Other than he, the other soul I have fallen completely for is my nephew (sister-in-law, Megali's) son, Rishabh. Now I am looking forward to my second little one, who's growing in my wife's belly as I write the post... 1..2...3...4, I really think I have a lifetime of love from this 4 little kids!

God has blessed me... I dont know what more I can want from Him.. only thing is that we are sooo greedy! At least, I am, I know... Of course, not that my greed has actually yielded success... but that's a story for another day!